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32 year old female. For years now I have had multiple medical problems. I have severe stomach ulcers that give me heartburn with anything I eat...It makes me throw up every morning for about the past 4 years...I think I have thrown up so much that I have been experiencing really bad stomach and throat pains everyday. I think I may have pulled something...years back I was in a car accident and at the time no medical insurance....I racked up a $28,000 bill and they did nothing....they wouldnt even give me one pain pill for my fractured sternum. nor did they even pull the shards of glass out of my toes.. I said to the doctor "IF I had insurance I might have been able to get something for my pain, huh?" and he just looked down and singled yes with his head....

My chest tends to have a feeling of popping out and I can barely breath it hurts so much.... I also have endometriosis and at times its to much pain to handle. Just the other night I had stomach pains so bad I had to crunch up into a ball and go through cold and hot sweats and tremors.. The pain lasted two days.  My boyfriend said I should go to the hospital but I said I already have too many bills due to hospitals and insurance companies.

I also have headaches so bad that sometimes the cluster headaches last two weeks.  I am developing a wrinkle in the middle of my forehead from squinting so much from headaches.  I take anywhere from 4 to 10 pills a day from tylenol to ibuprofen to aspirin.  I have been getting pains in my front and back sides that feels almost like a really bad pain infection.  I dont know if something is wrong with me from other things or if it is from all these pills I have been taking.  I do know that they are not helping my ulcers any.  My bones ache everyday and at times my hands and arms cramp up with emence pain to where I cant even move them. I dont know if it is because I am getting older or what but a few times a year I will become allergic to something and break out into itchy hives so bad I usually head to the hospital.  In the last month I have broken out into hives 3 times and have been getting these painfull feelings allthrough my body that feels like a million needles and I feel like I'm going to pass out due to being so hot.

A few years back I applied for medical insurance through Blue Cross.  I filled out the paper work they asked on the app if I have been seen by a doctor for anything and what meds were prescribed. I stated the truth and said I had a yeast infection and that I took the little pink pill.  So I waited a month to finally be able to get the help I need. Well I got a letter from Blue Cross about a month later and it said " due to your recent yeast infection you are denied at this time".  I couldnt believe this. I went back to the insurance agents office and asked why did they do that and she said that another lady just got denied due to her recent ear infection. 

I know all of this sounds like a lot of BS to listen to but I am stating all of this because I want them to know that I dont know all the things wrong with me.  I feel like I am going to die.  I feel like what's the use of going to the hospital to rack up more bills when they may say something like I'm dying.  If that is the case I definitely won't have medical to help me through it.  I at times start to write out a will of all my possessions. I write down what songs would be cool to play at my funeral. I feel depressed everyday because all these things I have going on with me makes me so stressed out everyday due to the fact I dont know what these things are. I don"t have children so I can't get on state medical.  If I could I feel like I should have like 10 kids as fast as I can so I can get on state medical.  I don't know what to do anymore.  There is no other choice but to give up.