Guaranteed Healthcare

I honestly don't know what happened. I don't remember if I had Medicaid before I had my job or after I lost it, but I just found out a few weeks ago that I don't have it anymore. The caseworker told me that I was only supposed to have Medicaid until the insurance for my new job kicked in.

So, I have no back teeth now because while I had Medicaid I went to a dentist and got the bad ones pulled, but had to wait a few months for it to heal before I could get partials. Now, no Medicaid = no Partials.

I have moderate/severe mental illness. I had Medicaid, so I could go to the therapist and psychiatrist and get medicine. Now, I'm on maintenance doses of an antidepressant that I get for $4 from the grocery store, and I'm hoping I can afford to go to the doctor on the sliding scale that they provide.

I feel so stupid sometimes. I know that there are people in this country who are dying without health care. All I am is miserable. But, without my medical care, it's harder for me to take care of my kids. Without my meds, I don't sleep.

Sadly, those of us with mental illness are forgotten. People think my problems are all in my mind...I wish they were because then I could just will myself to sleep at night, force myself to concentrate on my school work (I'm working on a computer degree online), and perhaps I could even convince myself that I am worth being taken care of. I am still human last time I checked.